Rainbows

When the sky is grey and full of clouds, we often want to go inside.  We forget so easily about the sun behind the clouds.  Sometimes we feel greyness within, perhaps we even are hard on ourselves for feeling that greyness which we call feeling "blue", but in reality aren't we feeling kind of grey and hazey and washed out.  As if without the sun our borders aren't clear, as they would be sharply defined on a clear and sunny day, with our shadows so markedly pronounced.  We often look down, our gaze shifting towards the earth, away from the sky and even more so, we feel the weight of gravity getting us "down". When these days come I wonder if we could just lift our eyes for a moment and imagine what is behind those clouds.  Perhaps if we look up we will notice that there are all various shades of grey, and different types of clouds, and as we allow our focus to become even sharper, perhaps we notice the clear boundaries between each cloud and the dimensions the clouds are in.  Sometimes, ,when we least expect it, we see gaps between the grey clouds, gaps of streaming rays of sunlight.  Even a bright blue sky.  And then most miraculous of all, when the drops of rain begin to fall, and the blue sky is peaking from behind the clouds, and the rays of sun are hitting at just the right angle a wonderful RAINBOW fills the sky with color and brightness.  What we see is a reflection of what is inside us.  The world with its miraculous changing ways is our greatest teacher.

Continuity

There are times in our lives when we desire change.  Change, not as the coins that we recieve in return from a payment, but change as in transformations, transitions, transcendence.  We are all a part of a reality which is forever changing.  This is not news. Our need for change, our longing for something different can be a true connection to our understanding that something in our life is not 'right'.  What we are looking for is a way to bring ourselves into a place which feels better than the one we are in now.  Often we look outside ourselves to find that place, we might even travel great distances both physically and figuratively, we might look to our partners or our friends or family members and ask for them to change in order to find that place that fits 'just right'. And more often than not we realize that since life is constantly changing, and our environment is always in a state of flux, what we are experienceing will follow us until we can focus inwards and see what it is that doesn't feel right in our being.  The moving from a place in ourselves which is uncomfortable and suffering to a place that is pleasurable and nurturing comes from within.  We start with observing that which isn't comfortable, we relate to it and give it the room it needs.  Listening to the needs as a part of our lives, a part of who we are today.  Sometimes this is enough. To listen, to observe, to be with ourselves , as one wave is a part of the ocean, so is that need.  An aspect of the flow of our nature.